Something Lost (chapter 11 & Epilogue)

[leospride]

Chapter 9

His name was, Ian

At first I though he was what I needed. He helped me out of my bad run and helped me deal with Fallon’s death, least I thought he did. You see Ian was a controlling man and liked to have things his own way.
I had never been a weak person and was always able to stand up for myself, and not once did I ever let anyone put me down or make me feel any less then a person. But I wasn’t myself and Ian knew it. Ian wooed me at first. Like most men, he took me out for the romantic dinners, walks in the park, we even went clubbing together.

He was so sweet.
Before I knew it, we were living together. Not long after that we were engaged. He didn’t like it but I wore Fallon’s ring on my other finger. He would make snide comments about it. Basically he was jealous of Fallon and all he had been to me. They weren’t the only comments he made, he made me feel like I was nothing. He would tell me at every opportunity that I was useless and wouldn’t amount to anything. That it was a good thing I had him to help me. I ended up believing his words and took them as my gospel.

I guess that’s why we still went ahead with the wedding. I felt I needed a way to make myself feel better.
Kyle had flown back especially for the wedding to be my ‘man of honor’. It was meant to be an outdoor wedding, for which I am grateful, never happened. Ian left me at the alter.
Kyle and I were waiting in a tent, set up just for us at the venue, ready for the ok to start walking down the isle.

We had been waiting ½ an hour, when the wedding planner came in with a note and handed it to me. I remember it word for word…

Ariannah, I don’t love you anymore. Actually to be honest, I never did. I don’t know why I thought you would change, and I am kicking myself I wasted so much time trying. You are useless and always will be. I am better off without you
Don’t bother contacting me, I want nothing more to do with you.

Ian.


It was almost a relief not to be marrying Ian. I had always known I didn’t want to be with him, and reading that note was like being let out of prison.
After that day I got myself a new life. With help and a lot of counseling I became me again. Life was great for the longest time; it was nice to be me and to feel free…until I got the bombshell of my life!

[Kate]

What a horrible man that Ian was!

And oh dear - the 'bombshell' doesn't sound good

[leospride]

Sorry for the short chapter.

Chapter 10

I was driving to my parents place for dinner with them. Something I hadn’t done in the longest time, and I was completely looking forward to it.

It had been raining most of that day and the roads were a bit slippery. It never fazed me. I had always loved everything about the rain and was always careful to take my time when driving in it. If I knew what was going to happen I wouldn’t have been in my car at the time.
I was singing away to the radio, watching the car in front of me, playing with their breaks.

Figuring they must have got them new for Christmas I didn’t take much notice. The next thing I knew their breaks became a reddish blur, then disappeared altogether. Then everything went black. I couldn’t see. Going into panic, I slammed my foot on my own breaks I swerved onto what I thought was the medium strip. It wasn’t. I found out later that I had swerved into an on coming truck. All I remember after that is hearing an almighty crash, and then there was nothing.
The next thing I heard was crying. I willed myself to try to get to the person who was doing the crying. When I was able to get my eyes open, it was to see my mum sitting next to the bed crying.

I tried to speak to her, but I didn’t have a voice and only made a squeaking sound. Mum was beside herself that I had finally woken up. She told me later I had been like that for four weeks, she also told me how I had got there and that I was lucky I was alive. My car was a complete right off. But that wasn’t the worst thing. No the worst was yet to come.

[Kate]

Oh no

[DejAng3l]

can't wait for next update.....why you gotta leave us with a cliff hanger like that?

[leospride]

Chapter 11

After the nurses had cleared away the tubing and machines surrounding my body and bed and made me comfortable in my own pjs, the doctor came in, his face was somber. Mum took hold of my hand and gave it a squeeze, reassuring me of something she knew but I didn’t. It left me more confused.
The doctor took the biggest breath I had seen anyone take, then he started talking.

He told me that the accident may have saved my life, as when I was brought in I was given a scan and they had found a tumor in my brain. He said that’s what had cause the black out while I was driving. They took me to theater straight away to not only fix my injuries from the accident, but they were also able to remove most of the tumor and sent it off for testing, he had received the results on the sample that day. The news gutted us.
It was cancerous, and because there was still some of it left, there was a chance it would grow back. He said that chemo it should shrink it and eventually, with any luck get rid of it. I felt like I had when Fallon died…numb.
With the support from Kyle, my family and friends, I had the chemo. Loosing my hair had to be one of the worst part of it. Mum kept telling me it would grow back. Kyle gave me the ultimate gift, he came over one day, completely bald.

I couldn’t believe my eyes, but he managed to give me something to smile about.

Everything was fine a year after the chemo was over, the tumor hadn’t grown, but my hair had and I hadn’t suffered any side affects, Kyle was even thinking of leaving us again to go back overseas. Life was what it was meant to be, until one fatal check up. The tumor had grown back, fast, and it was continuing to grow at a very fast rate. The doctors gave me mere weeks to live. There was nothing they could do to help me. The hardest thing was telling everyone, especially my best friend who had been there for me, for everything!

Epilogue
I am dying, and the story you have read is the flash back of my life, my romantic life…because that’s what I am and always will be a romantic.

My name is Arianah Jessamine Emily Bella Lucas, and to understand the end you will always need to understand the beginning….

[DejAng3l]

omg....this is just too sad....and it really hit me hard as not too long ago I lost someone i know to brain tumor.......and he was still so young too.....after having like at least 3 unsuccessful surgery as the tumor kept growing back, it got to the point where it was unoperable anymore.....it was so sad seeing him weakening and then passing on......I really feel for arianah

[Antilife]

OMG!!! I'm sorry I didn't comment until now!!!! This storry was sooooo sad. But it was great.

[leospride]

I am really sorry to hear about your friend DejAng, i know how it feels to watch someone get that sick and not be able to do anything about it, it sucks!

And Anti no apology is necessary, i am just glad you commented at all, and thanks.

[Piñacolada]

Just read your story leos, sorry am a bit late!

Was really good, very moving, I like your writing style a lot. Would love to read more from you